The last couple of months have been a roller coaster of emotions.
The HRT patch I have been using for over 2 years has been discontinued and the new one I am taking does not agree with me, from anxiety, to swollen limbs and feeling lethargic I have decided to change it – I think I am lucky, as I have something good to compare it to.
It is the 2nd time a brand of HRT I have been taking has been discontinued…pharmaceutical companies really should be made aware of the impact this has on a woman. The one I was taking was discontinued last year, but I had enough in reserve to see me through…until 2 months ago. I will admit I left it pretty close to when I had almost run out – call it hope that it was just a blip in manufacturing, or denial that my body did not want to try something else as what I was taking worked for me.
I have also handed in my notice at work…why? Several reasons; I commute over an hour each way to and from work, I have a long day from a 9am start to a 6pm finish and have been doing this for 5 years. I have been thinking for a while that it is time for a change and it is time I focus more on me, my health and finding a job that allows me to do that. I live in central London, so my future commute should be easy.
At first I thought “what have I done?”, but then I thought life is for living and a woman going through the menopause should not feel held back and scared. The menopause can be so debilitating, but I want to change that for me and find out “what can I do?” to help me (and others) break down the taboo that is the menopause. For a while I have been thinking does my ethnicity, lifestyle, mental attitude play a part in my menopause symptoms? I have to use different products for my hair and for my skin, should I be looking into what different races use, the attitudes towards the menopause in different countries and the diet of different cultures?
I feel like I am at the start of a new chapter in my life – a slight sadness regarding letting go of some things, but excited to take steps in a new direction, learn and to see what that brings.